Being Strong Is The Only Option.
Every night I make sure my phone is on loud, charged, and right next to me, I wait for Keaton to call, and tell me "goodnight babe," just hearing his voice makes it a little easier. I'm about to lose the luxury of being able to text him every day, and call him whenever I'm feeling a little down. He deploys to Afghanistan in two days, and it hasn't completely hit me yet, it doesn't feel real. But I know as soon as I don't wake up to a "good morning" text or phone call, it'll really hit me. I'm trying my best to be strong, for him and me. It's the only choice I have, crying everyday isn't going to bring him home any sooner. These nine months aren't going to be easy, I know that, but I also know that he's the only thing that seems worth it right now. I'm constantly over-thinking things, like "what if he doesn't wanna be with me when he gets back," or "what if he loses feelings for me?" it makes it even harder. I'm falling even more in love with him every day, and I haven't told him yet. I wish this was easy, and he didn't have to go. I wish we could be like the couples I see everyday, I wish he could meet my family and everyone can see how lucky I am. I just want to hold his hand and kiss him whenever I want to. I don't get to do that with Keaton. But what we have is real, he's the one person I can count on, and I don't see myself with anyone else. I know I have to keep busy if I'm gonna stay sane these next 9 months. I'd love to hear other stories! and what you ladies have been through!