My Boyfriend Just Left Yesterday and I Feel So Broken Inside
Hi, my boyfriend, Steven and I have been together for 3 months. This morning, he just left for Basic Training to Fort Jackson. Saying goodbye to him was the hardest thing that i've ever done. A lot of people doesnt seem to understand how much we love each other. I know that i've only been with him for a few months but i know that i love him and he loves me too. People think were crazy to fall in love so fast but theres just something about him that i cannot live without.
When i first met him, i knew he joined the army. I knew what i was getting myself into. I just didnt expect time to fly by so fast. Now that he left, i feel like my world has ended. It's hard for me to sleep, to eat, to go out. Everything reminds me of him. My friends are supporting me and comforting me. They said everything will be alright but somwhere in the back of my mind, i'm afraid that things with me n him wont go back to the way they were before. I'm scared out of my mind, im anxious to know about the future.
I never expected that i would be an army girlfriend. It hurts a lot to not be able to see your boyfriend or hear from him. I dont know how i will be able to survive this. I'm scared that our relationship wont survive. What if he loves the army so much that his feelings for me will eventually deteriorate? What if he chooses his passion and love for the army over our love for each other? I feel so comfortable sharing my feelings and stories here because everyone here has experienced this before. I applaud every single one of you. I realize that to be an army girlfriend, you have to be really strong. I'm still trying to be strong for him but i can't help the tears from falling.
Also, i have a few questions that my boyfriend doesnt really want to answer. He's leaving for Basic right? isnt that only like 3 months? why did he say he was not going to come back until december or january? also, he said that when he comes back, he wasnt going to leave anymore. He was going to finish university for 4 years. is that possible? also, when will i recieve a phone call from him? and what's this i hear about him being able to use his cell phone? sorry if i'm overriding everyone with questions. I'm new at this whole thing and there's a lot that i dont understand. Please help me. Thanks.