I Need Advice!!!!

My boyfriend has been deployed for 2 months now and we talk regularly on facebook and thats about it. I decided to start writing him letters and sending him cards on a regular basis to show him that I love and miss him. I also write him love letters on facebook alot too because I know that he will see it within the day. The problem I am having is that when I write him things I put my heart and soul into them. I confess my love for him as well as try to write sexy letters for him too. The letters that I write him take me at least and hour to 2 hours minimum to write. I try to make it as special and thoughtful as possible. When he messages me he doesn't say anyhing about it at all. This greatly confuses me because I thought that I would get some kind of reaction or response from those letters but instead I get nothing. This really bothers me and it is starting to make me resentful. I want to be there for him and I want him to know how much I love him so I put alot of time into it and it really hurts my feelings to not even get a........wow what a letter....or thanks for writing me that letter I really liked it. I don't think I am expecting much from him. It's not like i want him to write me a sonnet or anything. I just want something that lets me know that the time I put into it wasn't waisted. The things I write to him are deep emotional feelings that I have for him. What I am doing for him is something that I have never done for anyone and is way out of my comfort zone. I think mainly because I feel vonerable expressing such stong feelings for someone. I chose to get over it because I love him and I want him to know it. When he doesn't say anyhing back it makes me feel weird or question the relationship because I just expect him to say something and when he doesn't it's awakward. I have talked to him before about how he makes me feel like I am the last thing on his mind. I know that he has alot more important things to think about but he can still in my opinion send me a short message saying thanks for the letter...or.....I'm thinking about you......or I love and miss you. I know that guys aren't good at expressing themselves but I don't care. Communication when able is the only thing we have and if he can't take 2 seconds to do that it ****** me off. It makes me so mad to the point that I don't even want to talk to him sometimes. Like last night, I wrote him a very sexual letter and I got absolutely no response to it. I know he got it becasue I talked to him right after I sent it. I talked to him for a few then ended he conversation abruptly with a "I going to bed now have a good night" no I love you nothing because I was that pissed that my efforts to make him happy were going unreconized. Please help me with any advice because I love this guy and I want things to work but if I continue to feel unappreciated then it really will be the death of things. I dont want to end up resenting him or even not want to talk to him bc that is where I am at now. I know that he is on almost every night at about 12:00am my time so I don't see where I am asking much. I do everything I can to make him feel loved while he is away and even though I am home I still want to feel loved too. Maybe that is selfish IDK. Let me know what you think.....am I over reacting.....a good way to cope with this situation.....or possibly any solutions that I can try. All I know is if the next letter I send gets no response than I am done with the letter sending until I get some kind of affection in return. Thanks and sorry this is so long its just something that has been bothering me for a while now and it helped me just t write those frusterations out.
SexySouthernGirl SexySouthernGirl
26-30, F
Nov 28, 2012