Worth It...

My baby just redployed from Iraq last year, but elected to go back again this year. It has been so hard to support him through this, but at the same time I am so proud of him. I wish we could have more time physically together, but I guess its not the way things were meant to be. I'm going to stick with him through this and support him, but 10 months is so daunting. Finally having him back has been so wonderful that its hard to imagine him leaving again and not being able to see him when I want. We met online while he was deployed this last time and we talked, emailed, wrote, and sent packages back and forth for 5 months and then we finally met in December and its been amazing. So really I've only been with him physically for 3 months though to both of us it feels like its been a lot longer than that. The hardest part for me is accepting that this has nothing to do with me, it sounds so selfish to think that, but its been the most difficult, but I've come to terms with that its just something that he feels like he has to do and though I don't think I'll ever truly understand why, all that is important is that we're still together. I don't know how I'm going to cope with not having him around, but I know that it'll be worth it to wait! :) 

jlee87 jlee87
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 3, 2009

My soldier just return from a year of deployment. And yes you are 100% right ..it will be the hardest thing that you might ever have to do. There really isn't anything that can truly prepare yourself for them being gone. I know that when my soldier stepped of that ugly bus and I had his arms wrapped around me a year of pain,stress,worry,tears,sleepless night and days of worrying that he was okay melted away like it never happened. Be strong, the girls on here are wonderful. You will make it through,but it will be the fight of your life! But it is so worth it in the end:) Good luck,God Bless...need anything let me know.