Men I Swear!!!! He's Vary Evasive...

Ok so I finally got to talk to my DB for a real conversation today!!  It's been like two weeks bc of what he's been thinking of...  So I naturally asked him what was on his mind, I asked in an off hand sort of way and he was all like I'll tell you when I tell you!  He's not budging an inch!!!  and he hasn't been vary talkitive lately bc of it...  He dosn't want me to know yet at all!!!

I kinda feel bad bc I ranted about how my last two weeks have been going...  Sooo here goes:

1.)   My DB hasn't been talking to me much...

2.)   My best friend went to go to a clinic and I went with, along with her bf and our other friend and the paper thing said it was in Sagnaw, it wasn't cuz when we called for directions (we drove from Detroit area to Sagnaw already) they said it was in Detroit.  So we made another appoitment and drove all the way back.  Well we call from my aunt's house (where I live) and try to get directions they tell us that it was in Flint!  So we talk to three diffrent people from three diffrent phone calls and got the same story three diffrent times and we drove up to Flint.  Thank goodness it was in Flint bc we all were getting hungry bc my friend had to fast and we all fasted with her to make her feel better :)

3.)   I get a speeding ticket.  It costs $150 and it's due today and I just got the money so it's late already...

4.)   My car is making terrible noises and I'm afraid to drive it any ware, and I have no money to fix it right now...  Nopt to mention that I have to get it fixed if I want to see my DB for Easter and his B-day bc he has no leave time and I can drive down there no problem if I had a car...  So I kinda feel like my life savor just got a hole popped into it and I need to patch it really fast...

5.)   I got a letter in the mail saying that my federal taxes arn't coming for another three weeks...

Not to mention that I am insecure in relationships bc of what happened in my past...  I've been cheeted on twice, once by my DB (the first time we dated) and a second time by another guy...  I'm insecure any way bc I totally don't see what my DB sees in me and I don't think I'm worth it...  (I try real hard to be positive all the time about this stuff but these past two weeks are really hard)  Soo this whole me not knowing and him saying absoutly nothing about it, except for it not being bad, is not good for my emotions, wich are going hay wire lately!!!  Like seriously I was watching "Growing Up Linx" on the Animal Planet and I cried happy tears bc the linx was well behaved enough to go out on stage and what not...  Pathetic I know but I couldn't help it!!!

BrendaMarie BrendaMarie
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 13, 2009

lol thanks :) I know and I have been... trying at least... It's just my car was the last straw yesterday... I needed to get it all out inorder to move on with life in a happier mood lol... not sure how that's working right now though cuz my uncle is an A-hole and i can't sleep past 10am any more... but i'm gonna go take a shower... i'm all home alone bc i didn't know breakfast was going on at my grandma's today and i got woke up like 15 min b4 it was ready and i gotta call a guy to look at my car and shower and get ready... that's an hour right there... sooo i don't get to go unless i went in pj's and then i'd be at the mercy of whoever to get home again... sooo what ever... blah i hate early saturdays (unless i'm with my DB of corse)

aww honey, head up, it will all get back to normal soon! Sometimes when all else fails ya just gotta fake it til ya make it!!