Okay so I think I finally cracked!! I hit that point where the smile turns to a frown and tears start coming before you even realize your crying... Today was that kind of a day! I've been really nervous about my bf Ian leaving for Texas after he graduates from AIT this thursday. Yeah, I should be proud and I am, but it's hard when you can't be there to celebrate. It's the Texas part that has been wiggin' me out... and i'm not really sure why. His unit is currently in Afghan so he might be immediately deployed once he gets there. I guess there there are just so many things running through my head, like if he does get deployed will i get to say goodbye? how long do they usually go out for? And how do you know what you can and can't send them? Ian is the most patient, kind, loving person and I am doing my best to stay strong for him! I just don't want to cry anymore..