I Am No Longer An Army Girlfriend
today is our anniversery and i wanted to help pay his expensive phone bill. so i get on tmobile and all i see are his calls and texts to the girl he cheated on me with before he left. and while im waiting here for days for a text or call he is talking to her sending her pictures and texting her. he knows she is the one girl i wish i could be because she had something that he wanted that i couldnt give her. adn he promised me i will never talk to her again. im not controlling she is just the one girl that gets to me. like what kind of girl stalks your myspace saying i slepty with your boyfriend and i taught him everthing you like. it just gets to me. and now that he is talking to her again i cant be with him. he knows he messed up he tried apologizing its just i cant trust him again. it hurts so bad. my heart feels so empty and scared but he has to realize he cant walk all over me. i learned my lesson and now he needs to learn his and realize he lost me for a while. maybe we can try it later on again but right now im not strong enough at all. i love him to death its just i cant do it anymore if i will just be second best. i lost the best thing i ever had but maybe i can continue living my life day by day and it might get better. my solider still has my heart in iraq and i cant ever get it back.