This Is What My Life Is Supposed to Be Like

Thursday, sept 3rd at 9:52pm. That's the moment my baby landed in minneapolis to come home to me from training. i waited there while my heart pounded incessently for his arrival. i had meticulously primped myself for this. i made sure every strand of hair was in the right place. i had strategically selected clothing that would remind him of what he had been missing ;)  i needed to look perfect!

of course he had been sitting at the back of the plane, so he was one of he last people out of the doors. the moment i saw him i was kind of surprised. it wasn't as exciting or thrilling as i had imagined. i didn't scream. i just ran to him and dug my face into his neck and threw my arms around him. it wasn't excitement, it was a deep and compelling need to have him near me.

he's been home for almost 2 weeks now. i have spent every moment i can with him. i was worried that things would be different between us. worried that while we were apart i had imagined how we were differently and that i would be disappointed. i had no need to worry. we fell right back into the swing of things once we were alone. i cannot describe to anyone besides the women on this site how incredibly amazing it is to hold him again. and again, it's not any excitement or thrill that has me looking forward to seeing him each day. it's more like a something that makes me whole. a feeling that this is what my life should be. it's very calm, but it's very deep. i love him with every ounce of my being.

last night he met me outside my parents house after i was done working. he was in acu's after drill. we kissed while holding hands and we danced in the moonlight on the driveway. i melted right there and i haven't come back to the mold.

i look forward to our days ahead. i have to stop myself from thinking about his looming deployment. im going to need a lot of support but i know he's worth it. i want to spend the rest of my life next to him. i want to marry him. thanks everyone who helped me through his bct and ait training. it was the hardest time of my life but i have learned how important he is in my life. thank you and god bless!