I Need Ur Help Ladies!!!!

So My fiance is in the army, Hes stationed in KANSAS and i live in florida, but he will be getting out of the army in a yr and comming home, here.. But point being this whole long distance thing is killing me. SOOOO let me start by saying we broke up sept of last year, and then he came home for leave for christmas and new years, it was so great, we did work thru our problems and got back together, well he had to leave and go back to KS, well he called me as soon as he got there and like 2 days later he told me to start planinng the wedding. So thats what i am up to. oh and he just bought me a wedding ring set ( ITS GORGEOUS LADIES!) WELL MY PROBLEM IS, WHEN HE FIRST GOT BACK TO KS FROM HOME, HE WAS CALLING AND TEXTING ME NON STOP, AND I LOVE THAT ATTENTION! I HATE FEELING LIKE IM ON THE BACK BURNER. WELL NOW A MONTH HAS GONE BY AND IT SEEMS LIKE HE HARDLY WANTS TO TALK TO ME ON THE PHONE. && IF I TRY AND BRING IT UP AND HOW I FEEL
(WHICH I TEND TO WORRY, GIVEN MY PAST OF BEING CHEATED ON) WELL HE GETS MAD AND THINKS ITS JUST MY INSECURITY TALKING. WELL I KNOW BY HIS PHONE RECORDS THAT HES NOT TALKING TO ANOTHER FEMALE, BUT IM STILL WORRIED THAT HES JUST GONNA GIVE UP ON ME OR SOMETHING, SINCE I CANT BE THERE IN KANSAS WITH HIM, OR MAYBE HE WILL JUST FALL IN LOVE WITH SOME HUSSY THERE, SINCE IM NOT. HE STILL TELLS ME HE LOVES ME AND HE SAYS HES NOT CHEATING BUT HES JUST EMOTIONALLY SHUT DOWN. AND I DID BRIEFLY GET OUTA HIM, THAT HE DOES MISS ME, THATS WHY SOME TIMES HE DOESNT WANT TO HEAR MY VOICE. I DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL BUT REJECTED SOMETIMES OR UNLOVED, BECAUSE ACTIONS DO SPEAK LOUDER THEN WORDS. I DONT KNOW IF I SHOULD JUST KEEP MY COOL AND GO WITH THE FLOW, CUZ MAYBE THIS IS ALL STILL STEMMING FROM HIS TIME IN THE SAND BOX. HE JUST GOT BACK FROM IRAAQ IN AUG. OF LAST YEAR, OR BECAUSE HES GOING THRU SOME **** AND IS SO READY TO BE DONE WITH THE ARMY AND JUST COME HOME. WHAT DO U LADIES THINK? IM GOING CRAZY, BECAUSE IM THE TYPE OF PERSON THAT HAS TO GET THINGS OFF MY CHEST AND BE DONE WITH THEM AND WITH HIM SHUTTING DOWN EMOTIONALLY IM NOT ABLE TO DO THAT SO IM HOLDING EVERY THING IN!!! AND I DONT KNOW WTF :( YALL TELL ME, AM I CRAZY AS HELL?? LOL

GRILLINGOLDZ561 GRILLINGOLDZ561
22-25, F
Feb 9, 2010