I Already Hate Deployment

So, I just got home yesterday from saying goodbye to my husband down at ft. campbell before his deployment.  I have never cried so much in my entire life.  My face is puffy and swollen, my body aches, and worst of all my heart hurts.  I tried to be strong and not break down, but in the end it happened.  I miss him so incredibly much already and going about my day has been miserable so far.  I know he will be safe, it's just so hard to say goodbye for such a long period of time and with all the uncertainty of communication that deployment brings with it.  I'm hoping to hear from him when he gets to Kuwait but we will see.  I'm just in a terrible mood and extremely upset, I'm sure many of you ladies have experienced this before and handled it just fine, but right now it just seems so hard.  I guess I just needed to get that off my chest.  I just gotta keep trying to get through these next couple of days before I get back into a routine.  Thanks for listening!

imissmatty imissmatty
22-25, F
3 Responses Feb 17, 2010

the first little bit is the hardest. I am also going through my first deployment and it's only been a month but it has been a terrible one. I can honestly say I'm doing much better now than when he first left. Just like you I hurt inside and out and I have never cried so much in my life. But just know it will only get easier. Try to think of the good times you had together and how wonderful it will be when he comes home instead of the bad. I'm here for you girl!

I won't experience deployment until August. But I hope your days get better and you keep yourself busy. He's missing you just as much! Just think..one more day without him, is another day closer to being with him! Hang in there girl!

well that's exactly how i FELT and LOOKED the day my boyfriend was deployed. The first few days are tough, but give it a week or so and you'll begin to get used to it :)