My Husband Is Recently Deployed

M y husband and I have almost been married for a year now. (I know, not very long, but a battle) We knew each other for 5 months and then were engaged. Then a few weeks after we got engaged, I became pregnant. Discovered so in February. Decided to get married on May 27th. It was a hard time adjusting to being an army wife. I did not know anyone in the army previous to meeting my husband. So I didn't have a clue on what life is like dealing with a 24 hour job. We had to live an hour away from my hometown. I am a mommy's girl. So that was also hard to get used to. Blah blah blah. We both knew that deployment was ahead, from the start of our relationship. Just never knew when it would happen. He left in April and it has been so lonely without him. I have our 7 month old son to keep me busy, that's for sure. But after he's asleep at night, the loneliness sets in. Especially at bed time. I was so used to having him home to cuddle with. He is affectionate, which I was not comfortable with for a while. But I miss it now! He's supposed to be deployed for long time. I am home now with my family, but I still feel like no one knows how I feel. I hide it. I cry myself to sleep usually. I cry after he calls me. I cry when I receive a letter from him. I cry when my son laughs because his daddy isn't here to share the joy with me. I have friends, but they have their own lives and relationships that keep them busy. I saw this site available on Myspace and decided to join mainly to find other women who know how I feel. Truly how I feel. Want to e-mail me, go for it. I'm a good listener. :)