I Can't Get Rid Of It

I know all of you are right, I just don't want to face it but I have to
Thank You

I do my best to feed often, but I do it in small amounts so I don't hurt my mate. This last time I barely took a mouthful. It's hard, especially when it's fresh, to stop. But you just have to think that it's someone's life you hold in your hands. You can't take it away from them, since they themselves are giving you what you need to survive and stay sane.

WTF!!??
You are jackass.

Okay.

Honey, I'm 100% vegetarian I don't even eat fish, or mussels.

I hate killing animals, any kind of harm to any kind of animal REALLY gets to me. I'm an atheist, I'm nowhere near pagan, AND I'm a skeptic. Somehow, Someone out there must have thought it was a brilliant idea to make me a vampire.

I hate feeding too. my partner encourages me t feed off of him (although it nearly killed him once) but it makes me feel sick to my stomach when I do. I love him. We're engaged. The last thing I wanna do is hurt him.

Every time I feed I think of my two beautiful puppies, my cats, my partner and my baby niece. I feel like whit when I do it.

But I need to. If I didn't, I'd go crazy. Instincts take over, hon, trust me.
if you don't trust yourself, feed off of a consenting person who you know can stop you.
You just have to feed. If not anyone, take it from me. You were dry for 5 years. You must be going NUTS. You just have to. Get a pattern happening, keep it regular and your body will get used to being fed again and as a result, the urges will go away.

I know it sucks, I do. But it's a necessity and you need to do it. So no more bullshit excuses. Just do it.

First off, there is nothing wrong with experiencing blood hunger. If you're vampiric, then you are what you are, as you were created.
Second, so long as the blood exchange was done safely and between consenting adults, there is nothing wrong with having done so.

As living vampires, we don't drink blood simply because we enjoy it. It is enjoyable yes, but we drink because we need the blood to keep from getting sick. Going dry for 5 years is detrimental to your health; you shouldn't abstain unless circumstance requires it.

hope this helps

Speaking in riddle won't get you anywhere, for starters.

How did you mess it up?
Did you go and kill someone and drained them of their blood? O_o