It's Not Fair!

Why me? All my life, I've been this way. I don't think I even remember a time I wasn't nervous when I'm NOT alone. I want to do so much; Go out, Have fun, Join Sports, Make friends, but I can't because of my stupid nervous personality. I'm in Track and Field and I admit I'm good, but at Meets I can't go all out because my muscles tighten from being so nervous. It's not fair! I don't need this stupid flaw, I don't even know what I did to deserve it. It's holding me back from everything I want to do. I can't relax and it kills me. I wish it would just go away, but it won't. I've tried everything. Why won't it go?
PrinceOblivion PrinceOblivion
18-21, M
Apr 8, 2011