PrivateI'm very sensitive so I need to erect strong interpersonal boundaries so that I don't get hurt by others. In addition, I'm also very perceptive and note things about other people that they don't even know about themselves. This also means I know their strengths and their weaknesses, and I know that I can hurt them very easily if I wanted to by hammering their weaknesses. But I choose not to do that because I don't want to hurt other people.
I also have a lot of "thoughts" that seem to come from nowhere but that are very accurate -- intuitions about things, strange insights. It is kind of bizarre. They are always right on but I know that if I share them people will think I'm strange or judge me in some way. So I keep it to myself.
No one's perfect, including myself, but there are a lot of bad people in the world I think, or just very selfish and into themselves. This selfishness displays itself in different ways -- a lot of people are very needy (selfish with the energy with others); while others are just downright greedy (selfish with the resources of the Earth). Others are insecure (they do not know themselves).
Still others have a lot of psychological problems through no fault of their own that need clinical attention, which they are not receiving. My abilities let me know this way ahead of time, so I keep away as much as I can. As a result I keep very clear of people because I'm aware that whatever chaos they bring could very will affect my life. I don't need or want chaos in my life.
I haven't really met many people who are centered. The ones that I do have their own lives, so sometimes there is some interaction. But even with them I don't reveal much about myself.
I have a lot of dreams about what I'm here to do on this planet, but I keep those to myself too, because I don't want others to judge me or laugh at me -- and also because I don't want people to think I'm arrogant or better than them. Best to go undetected, I think.
I can think of one or two people in my life who I am very open with -- my true friends. They are precious to me, and I am grateful for them.
Maybe one day I'll meet more. Ideally I want whoever I mate/marry with to be as precious to me as the one or two people I've met in my life already who are my good friends. But, given the odds, that's really up to the universe, and not to me.
Seraph1m 26-30, M 2 Responses 5 Nov 3, 2007