Hard To Talk About

This is yet another story that is hard to write. I would rather not talk about it, but I am resolved to share every part of me even if I find them embarrassing.
Ever since I was a teenager I have almost always had sex on my mind. The thing is, sex embarrasses me. Anything about sex embarrasses me. My body, what turns me on, even my past sexual experiences embarrasses me. It always has.
Since starting testosterone I have had sex on my mind more than ever. Yet, even with a stronger sex drive then I have ever had before, I am too shy to even talk to any one much less hook up. I think about sex just about all day every day and yet I know that I will never have the nerve to do anything but **********. I guess that's just the way it is.
lyricaldemise lyricaldemise
41-45, T
Jan 15, 2013