I Feel So Lost And Confused, What Do I Do?My husband and I have been married for 5 years. The first time he hit me was 2 years into the marriage, although I look back now and can see the warning signs right from the beginning. The first time he hit me, it was pretty intense and came out of nowhere. It was a period of 2 days where he would just hit me out of nowhere and strangle me until I got the strength to leave and call the cops. After listening to him beg for another chance, I dropped charges. Things stayed good for about a year and then he hit me a second time. This time, the police were never called. The third time was about a month ago where he came to my work and started pushing me, telling me he was going to kill me. Every time he has hit me or pushed me around he has been high on drugs or intoxicated.
I got a call today from his public defender who stated that my husband said I wanted to drop charges. I never said I wanted to drop charges this time, he is just assuming I will again. Now I feel so guilty and don't know what to do. Should I drop charges again? I'm scared of him, even though when he's sober he can be really nice. I'm hoping someone here can give advice