Breaking Point

THESE PAST 5 YEARS I HAVE BEEN IN A SOME WHAT GREAT RELATIONSHIP WITH
"THE MAN OF MY DREAMS". HE IS MY WORLD AND MY BESTFRIEND. WELL HE WAS. NOW HE IS A TOTALLY NEW MAN. MY DREAM MAN ENDED UP BEING A PHYSCO. HE BEATS ME RAPES ME AND TREATS ME LIKE A SEX SLAVE. I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP AT NIGHT, THEN I SLEEP ALL DAY FROM DEPRESSION. ONE NIGHT HE CAME HOME IN A DRUNK RAGE AND TOOK HIS ANGER OUT ON ME. HE TORTURED ME TILL SUN RISE WITH SHARP KNIFES AND HOT IRONS. HE CHOKES ME TILL I PASS OUT, STUCK A BROOM UP MY ***, PULLED OUT HANDFULLS OF MY HAIR, STABBED ME IN THE ARM, PUNCHED ME IN MY FACE......AND SO ON. I WOULD NEVER WISH THIS TYPE OF PAIN ON ANYONE. NOW WHEN WE ARE IN BED I DONT FEEL ANY CONNECTION. I TRYED A MILLION TIMES TO LEAVE HIM BUT HE WONT LET ME. I AM SCARED THAT HE IS GOING TO KILL ME BECAUSE HE HAS NO LIMITS AND WHEN HE IS IN THE HEAT OF THE MOMENT HE SAYS THINGS LIKE "TODAY YOU DIE *****" WHILE HE CHOKES THE LIFE OUT OF ME. NOBODY EVER HELPS ME INCLUDING THE POLICE. AS AKWARD AS THAT SOUNDS IT IS THE FULL TRUTH.