The Hardest Part For Me Right Now...

Is not talking to the man who brainwashed me.

Who hit me.

Because I still love him...

paigetamu paigetamu
18-21, F
9 Responses Feb 28, 2010

Thanks, it was hard for me to get out of the situation. I actually had to have a friend come rescue me practically and take me home to tell my parents and get away from him and find safety. But it did start out with emotional abuse, then it became physical. Hope you aren't in the situation and if you are you must help yourself and leave.

Yea...this is old. I've definitely moved on from this ******* LOL

He is of course!

It's very hard. I am going through the same thing right now and I hope it just gets better for me. One day at a time. Sometimes I don't know who the bigger loser is. Him or me.

Yea I got out of the relationship awhile back and it was the best thing I ever did for myself, because now I couldn't be happier and I've learned so much about myself, and I know that I am a strong person and did not deserve to be treated that. I also just realized how much of a run on sentence that was lol.

I was with my ex for 4 years and believed that he loved me and I loved him. No matter what he did I believed that he would change for me because he loved me.<br />
I wasn't until the abuse got physically worse that I realised he was never going to change and that I had to get out.<br />
Its far from easy to admit that the relationship your in is not the right one and then having to deal with the fact that you will be alone is even harder. You just need to tell yourself that you deserve better and that no one deserves to be treated this way.<br />
If someone loves you the last thing they should or would do is hurt you, would you do it to them?

Ok...I've never been hit by anyone, especially by someone that I loved...<br />
It's very hard to get through. Being emotionally abused and then physically abused. I've lost myself in it all...and now all I can do is try to realize that he never loved me, and there is no reason that I should love him...But the fact is, it isn't that easy.<br />
It will take time to heal.

i still love my abuser very much and I am fresh out of the situation and finding it hard to deal. I am not talking to my abuser because he continues to abuse with words (if I was there it would be physical) You just cant stop loving someone, and if someone has that secret, please let me in on it .<br />
My abuser was arrested and took to jail-now he is living with some friends. He is an alcoholic and was not ever abusive until he drank. I feel so alone-no one to talk to. HE called me tonight and told me he didn't want anything to do with me anymore cuz he went to jail and I was not worth it. Then he told me that hed consider coming back if I brought him some of his clothes. I am an emotional wreck and I Still love him! How sad it may be, but I love myself more not choose not to be hurt anymore. God Bless u.

and what do you love about him, the fact he hits you and try's to play with your mind, and he loves you that much he hits you ,I would not call that love would you.