Im Tired Of That Sinking Feeling In My Chest...i feel so sad tonite...
so tired of that heavy feeling in my chest, the one you get when you know youre being abused
i can keep a clear head above it all, i know that its not me and that this man is an abuser,
a twister-of-words, someone who will never see the error of his ways no matter how i present them to him,
he always turns everything around on me and accuses me of the very things that i accuse him of....
which in regards to me couldnt be further from the truth...
not to sound big headed but i am like the nicest,
most forgiving, loving, person i know... and everyone else says the same.
i guess thats why i make a good target for abuse, im too nice.
why does life have to be that way,
the nice people get treated badly...
i think thats what makes it hurt more than anything, feeling mean words land on my very very soft kind heart.
i hate him and i want him out of my life so bad... im doing everything i can to make it happen.
but it is a complicated situation and cant be done overnight :(
i have been though various types of abuse and i swear to me this is the worst kind
i need a hug....