I Dont Want To Be Here Anymore
I am 25 years old and I have been emotionally and sexually abused for several years now. My previous boyfriend was heavily on drugs who would beat me, belittle me and then force me to have sex with him because he said it was all my fault and I needed to make things right. He constantly cheated on me as well. Despite all of that I was afraid to be without him and be lonely. I am now in a new relationship and even though he does not hit me he constantly is rude to me and purposely makes me feel like nothing. Once again I am afraid to be without him and be single. A lot of times I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up again. I cry all of the time and I look at the scars on my body caused by my ex boyfriend and theu remind me that no one is ever going to love me. I just don't want to be here or anywhere for that matter anymore.