I Am a Victim of Emotional Abuse
I dated a guy for five years that was severely emotionally ****** up, I need to make that clear first before I say anything else he was screwed but I loved him and I needed someone to need me. However, I was 13 years old when we started...he was 17.
We started by chatting online a lot, doing a lot of fantasy role playing and talking hours upon hours a day and the a few months in he asked me to be his IRL girlfriend and so we started dating. We exchanged cell numbers and talked constantly 9-10 hours a day falling asleep on the phone together. It was a long time before we did anything to overly sexual in nature until one night he was on web cam and jacked off for me. Then we started having phone sex and cyber sex a lot I would say I was about 15 at this point. He constantly sent me love letters and presents in the mail. He told me he loved me all the time. The only problem was the distance between us but I promised when I turned 18 I would come find him. We got in fights to of course, he always seemed so sorry about and spent a lot of time crying over the phone to me about how he had wronged me and how he didn't want to lose me..
Finally I turned 18 and that's where everything got messed up, I earned a rather sizable scholarship to go to college in his home town and so I moved 5 states away from anyone I knew to be with him. I get out there and we spend a few weeks together, I lose my virginity to him and then he dumps me. After 5 years of waiting he dumps me. He tells me he never loved me and everything he said was a lie..he never intended on marrying me or being with me at all. And I was stuck out there and I had to make it work, I saw him all the time just around town. Every so often he would come back to me and want to be friends and I would give in and we would sleep together and he would bolt again. One night I tried to stand up to him and he tried to rape me. I told him we couldn't be friends and I didn't want to see him any longer.
It has taken awhile and I still struggle everyday with the way things ended between him and I. I am with someone new now, and unfortunately he has to spend a good majority of his time paying the price for the damage this man has done to me.
We started by chatting online a lot, doing a lot of fantasy role playing and talking hours upon hours a day and the a few months in he asked me to be his IRL girlfriend and so we started dating. We exchanged cell numbers and talked constantly 9-10 hours a day falling asleep on the phone together. It was a long time before we did anything to overly sexual in nature until one night he was on web cam and jacked off for me. Then we started having phone sex and cyber sex a lot I would say I was about 15 at this point. He constantly sent me love letters and presents in the mail. He told me he loved me all the time. The only problem was the distance between us but I promised when I turned 18 I would come find him. We got in fights to of course, he always seemed so sorry about and spent a lot of time crying over the phone to me about how he had wronged me and how he didn't want to lose me..
Finally I turned 18 and that's where everything got messed up, I earned a rather sizable scholarship to go to college in his home town and so I moved 5 states away from anyone I knew to be with him. I get out there and we spend a few weeks together, I lose my virginity to him and then he dumps me. After 5 years of waiting he dumps me. He tells me he never loved me and everything he said was a lie..he never intended on marrying me or being with me at all. And I was stuck out there and I had to make it work, I saw him all the time just around town. Every so often he would come back to me and want to be friends and I would give in and we would sleep together and he would bolt again. One night I tried to stand up to him and he tried to rape me. I told him we couldn't be friends and I didn't want to see him any longer.
It has taken awhile and I still struggle everyday with the way things ended between him and I. I am with someone new now, and unfortunately he has to spend a good majority of his time paying the price for the damage this man has done to me.
By:
Vicera
Age:
22-25
,
Female
