Where Did Daddy Go?When I was young I was never very close with my dad. In fact when I was little I was scared of him, the only time we saw each other was when I was in trouble which goes into why I was afraid of him I suppose.
When I was in fifth grade, my parents got a divorce and I went with my father. I was so hurt when that happened. Here I was, crushed that MY parents were getting a divorce, and my mother chooses my youngest brother over me. As the years progressed he and and I got closer and closer and eventually I felt like I actually knew the man whom I called father but then I gained a step-mother...Out of all the women my father dated after my parent's divorce the ONLY one I didn't like, was the one he chose to marry.
He's different around her, more angry and serious. He tells me I'm fat and so does my step-mother. He tells me I'm a failure and I'm never going to amount to anything, he tells me I'm going to become a crack-***** and we might as well go pick out my bridge now. He doesn't hit me anymore, but mostly because I avoid him as much as I can. I can't talk to him about anything, if I try and tell him why I don't like my step-mother he doesn't see why and all of the reasons I have seem to just float out of my head when I try to tell him. I makes me so angry and hurt that he never even considered my feelings when he decided to bring a complete stranger into my home, we now it's HER home as well, we had to move because of her. I had to pack up my ENTIRE life, leave all of my friends because of someone I know nothing about, someone who is mean to me. Someone who makes my father hate me...
When my step-mother first moved in, she was "Upset" because my brother's were to loud or something silly like that. He told us "If she leaves because of you guys, I'll never talk to you again." and the kicker? He wouldn't even let me move to my mother's house. He wanted this new woman to be happy, but he wouldn't even let the problem go away. He figures if she has to be unhappy then I might as well be miserable.
I crave any moment when my step-mother is away, on business, a trip anything. Because when she's gone, daddy comes back.
NeenaFlame 18-21, F 0 Sep 21, 2012