Not Sure What To Do??

I am not sure if I'm going crazy or maybe I'm the problem in my relationship. I married my husband two years ago this June. I have three children and let him adopt them. I have regretted that decision for awhile now. He is a good provider for my family. We own a small business. I was married to a liar cheater abuser physically for ten years and lived in a spouse abuse shelter when I left him. My husband now makes me feel like everything is my fault. I'm not happy and when he says he is gonna leave I beg him to stay. He breaks things in the house and says things to me like he is just gonna kill himself. He told me just the other day how its hard to be with someone who nobody will look at. My youngest son is starting to act like him and my daughter says if I leave she and her little brother are going to live with him. I don't know what to do. Everything is in his name. I sold my car because he said we didn't need it sitting around. We recently bought a trailer for our semi truck and my grandparents consigned. I don't have a job because I'm in my last semester of college. I feel like I failed my children. It seems their is no way out. Please help
Momofthree78 Momofthree78
31-35
2 Responses Jan 10, 2013

Develop a long term exit plan. Build up your resources again and a support network.

This was written several months ago, have things gotten better for you?