Never Ending Story

 Hello everyone.  I am 26 years old.  And I am starting to get really nervous about the fact that I will be alone for the rest of my life.  You see, I have had issues with my self-esteem for ages.  I think the true problems started to come in middle school when I would be teased and called ugly to my face.  I was rejected a number of times by guys who i told people I liked.  Sometimes in harsh ways. High school wasn't much of an improvement since I went to an all girls school and very rarely hung out with guys.  I was also molested by a family member in high school which didnt help.  College was yet another disaster since that is where I began to eat away my sorrows.  I didnt meet many guys who I liked and liked me back.  In fact that's always been my problem.  I have yet to meet a guy that I really like that likes me back.  I say all this to say that Im still a virgin.  I don't know how to interact with straight males and considering my age I just dont know how things can change.   I have very few friends who can relate to this.  It makes me really sad and depressed.  There's way more to the story but since this is getting long i will just leave it at that.

madonnalover102 madonnalover102
2 Responses Mar 23, 2009

you sound like you have a similar story to me. with my shyness, anxiety and low self esteem. it has kept me from being able to meet women or find a date. it is tough being single and alone all this time. Like Wraither said you just need to open to make changes. one thing I am working on is tring to finally get out on my own and maybe finally get into a neighborhood with people my age (cause I always have lived in a neighborhood with noone my age)

The only way to improve your life is to take charge and start steering in a new direction. You can get support from family, your friends and EP but the main effort lies on your part. You have to believe that you can make things the way you want them to be. As long as you're not being unrealistic in what you expect from life, it's the best thing you can do for yourself. And finding love and not having to eat away your sorrows is very realistic as long as you start out by loving yourself and being open minded to change. You can do it :)