It Hurts Without Him

I just turned 39 and it has been almost three years since I lost my husband after a two year battle to cancer. I have a young son. I can't seem to get past hating my life or finding enough energy to do more the get by. All of my friends are still married and I feel like I am teh worst case senario reminder of how short life can be. I'm not sure at what point I start to feel like I am amoung the actively living and not part of the fake till you fake it crowd.
36-40, F
Jul 18, 2010