The Visit

yeah girlhollie, it usually does help me to cry. I think this time though it just made me feel groggy for the day.....it really wasn't a good day for me. I feel better now. I'm just going through some changes and leaving some things behind. It's a bit hard to do. You must miss your grandmother terribly. I know I miss my mother. She was my friend and we had a close relationship, so I know how you miss her. Carry her with you and be happy. Thank you for your kind words too. :)

Chickadeedee, I empathize with you. What a feeling, huh? To be so close and so far.....

It's been just over two years lorraine, I talk to him and tell him things sometimes, as though he were there. I still have an empty spot where his answer would be, so I fill it in. I've dreamt of him, but he never speaks.....I never hold it in. It hurts too much to do that.

But that brings me to Travelinman. I really appreciate what you've said. I am learning to be on my own. I don't know what my future holds for me. Perhaps someone, one day will want me for who I am and not ..... I am starting to have all the good memories come back to me as you said "to the forefront" I guess that was the reason for my sudden outburst. Sometimes they kind of flood in all at once..... I have a friend who is divorced and I think the difference between the two of us is small. I will try not to become what I fear. Thank you all for being so kind.

You don't say how long your husband has been gone, not that it really matters. Grief and mourning last as long as it takes. Getting your anger out is the best way to start. Holding it in isn't healthy.



Of course you know he is very much alive in your heart. Talk to him all the time. Forget what family members or friends say--talk to him as if he never left you.



Don't be surprised if he answers--you just have to be open to it.