How Did This Hapen?
My husband and I ran a business together. We built it with the intention of just making a living. We had been married for six years when we started out. We had three great kids together.
When he died in 2007 I was devastated. He had been mine and now he was gone. Our small town business made us a lot of friends. I didn't want for family or friends. I kept the business open even though most people assumed I would close without John. He was, after all, the Salesman, Artist, and Boss. I was the secretary and laborer. For months I struggled on not quite all there, but still alive. I had to let our one helper go, and worked alone. That was hard.
The main supply company had a delivery driver who had worked our route for about 2 years. He was a nice guy. Very trustworthy and always made sure our deliveries were not damaged. He and John would talk sometimes on days I was not there. Fabian was careful not to fraternize with his customers wives.
I don't remember much about those months after John died. I do remember when one day I had been crying while working on some artwork on the computer , when Fabian walked in. I tried to cover my mood with some chatter. I didn't like people to see me cry. He started talking to me and I responded. It occurred to me that he might not know about John. (Silly thought really) I asked him if he knew and he said, "Yes, I know. I just didn't know what to say to you."
He made me feel better with that. I don't know why. Maybe because everyone else was so quick to talk about his death that I was glad someone wanted to talk to me about me. I don't know. Anyway, he left me his phone number and told me to call anytime I needed to talk. I called him one day about a month later. We started talking all the time. Then In April I was going to go camping with my kids and little sister who had just started working with me. The day before I left I was talking to Fabian at the shop and before he left he kissed me on the cheek.(Fabian is very shy and just a smidgeon shorter than me) I, without a second thought, Kissed him back. On the mouth. I was surprised by my own action and just walked away like I didn't have a care about doing it. The next thing I know he is kissing me and that's how it all started. Wow! What a kiss. We haven't actually dated yet, but he is always working and so am I. But we have only been an item for about 5 months. My husband and I dated over a year.
John has only been gone a year and a half, but once I thought that I was going to be dead inside for a long time, now I know I can live, love and be happy again.