I Am A Recent Widow

 I lost my husband three months ago in accident while we were on a vacation in the carribean. We have three little boys ages 2,4 and 6. I still cannot believe that he is gone. It all feels like a bad dream. I worry about my little boys and if I'm doing everything they need to ease their pain. I feel like someone has just puched me in the stomach all the time. This weekend is his memorial service.I was hurt in the accident aswell and spent two months in the hospital. There are so many people I haven't seen yet. I think this weekend will be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I would really love to chat with other widows that have lost their husband suddenly. 
april16 april16
36-40
3 Responses Jul 20, 2010

i have recently lost my wife and newborn son like yourself i to have 3 boys aged 2, 4 and 6 with my 4 yr old also bring autistic i am constantly thinking about what they r going through and what my youngest 2 really understand about what has happened i live in australia in ipswich queensland and i have not been able to find any groups for what im going through to read of the loss of your husband in such a way i cant imagine what its like for you either thank you for reading this and may evrything come good for you in time

I lost my wife to cancer 355 days ago. It still hurts lif a knife in my guts. Just trying to live my life and stay alive for my family is overwelming. I know I have mental distress but I just can't seek help. April 16, I know we are Venus and Mars, and I am way out of the mainstream. But if you want to talk, I will be here for you and any other widows of either gender. No one else seems to understand but another widow, and all of our situations and feeling may be very diverse. But we have that one thing in common we don't have with anyone else. Just try to do your best for your kids, and if you feel like today your best is less than nothing at all, dont' dwell on it, for tomorrow will come and will always give you another chance.

"The single finger which wipes our tears during our failures is better thenthe ten fingers come to clap on our victory