Alone Again Quite Naturally. . .
I have been widowed twice now and am only 61. I live alone with my loyal pets. I'm trying to start a new life, new friends. My family and friends live two states away. I enjoy my solitude, but there are times when it get so lonely. I would like to meet someone to share the remaining years with. I've been looking for a year now, but am not having any success. After many unsuccessful "meetings" & encounters I'm ready to give up the search. The pain each time is greater and it takes me longer to recover. I'm also tired of dealing with all the scammers who take advantage of lonely people.
I cared for both of my husband's when their health failed. I just don't know how to go on any more. I've tried praying, meditating, grief recovery. I'm only finding temporary relief. As a recovering alcoholic sobriety is key, at least I've maintained that. I live in a remote area with very limited resources. I'm surviving on my own will power.
How do I keep going on when it seems like I'm constantly being hurt?? Am I a victim, yes. Am I doing anything about it? I'm trying.