It's been 6 years since I lost my Darling and I miss him tremendously. He was such a big part of my life that I thought I would just die of a broken heart when he left this world. Today would have marked our 21st Anniversary. It's funny how much my life has changed and how little I feel that change. I woke up this morning and thought to myself it's our anniversary. Then I saw all the religious statues, my room mate, the crucifix and realized my darling was not with me physically anyway. I did cry but then again I usually do when I miss the sounds of my darling sleeping or the smell of him. Of course, life does go on and yes I do live life to honor his memory is important to me. So, I packed the usual lunch and went to the little town where he lies in rest. Put down the blanket, set out the food and yes even had a beer. He always liked his beer. I ate lunch with him under a perfect sky with warm sun today. His spirit was there with me today. Only my darling could send me such love as I felt and do every year on our anniversary lunch. I miss him so very much but still remember to live the life I have been given. I know his love is with me - no matter where I am or what I am doing - I know his love is with me.