Our Anniversary

It's been 6 years since I lost my Darling and I miss him tremendously. He was such a big part of my life that I thought I would just die of a broken heart when he left this world. Today would have marked our 21st Anniversary. It's funny how much my life has changed and how little I feel that change. I woke up this morning and thought to myself it's our anniversary. Then I saw all the religious statues, my room mate, the crucifix and realized my darling was not with me physically anyway. I did cry but then again I usually do when I miss the sounds of my darling sleeping or the smell of him. Of course, life does go on and yes I do live life to honor his memory is important to me. So, I packed the usual lunch and went to the little town where he lies in rest. Put down the blanket, set out the food and yes even had a beer. He always liked his beer. I ate lunch with him under a perfect sky with warm sun today. His spirit was there with me today. Only my darling could send me such love as I felt and do every year on our anniversary lunch. I miss him so very much but still remember to live the life I have been given. I know his love is with me - no matter where I am or what I am doing - I know his love is with me.
Martha45 Martha45
41-45, F
4 Responses Sep 21, 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. You picnic is a lovely memorial.

It's ok. He's at peace and so am I now. I do it every year - rain or shine and every year I feel his love with me when I'm there. Thanks for the response! Take care!

when i read your thinking i am not fear of death it is reality but if i will not in this world and my wife and my kids remember me like you it will forever life for me inspired your thinking sending add request person kind like you should be my friend

Thanks for your kind words and your wonderful response! I know a sweet man like you will be as tenderly remembered as I remember my darling. :)

I am sorry you were parted from your darling. You obviously loved him very dearly. I imagine that he sees you honouring his memory and prays for you to live your life to the full until you are together again. Thank you for sharing this loving story.

Thanks and your welcome. Love is to be shared by my way of thinking anyway.:) Well, my life is certainly not what I thought it would be without him but I do feel that he is with me when I am in Rome or praying in the Vatican or serving at a Mass. I feel him with me sometimes so close and it is always when I need a little extra push to keep doing what I do. Thanks for the response and take care! God Bless!

A sweet anniversary. Hope ur happy Martha. :)

Thanks and yes I'm very happy with the way life is now.:) Take care!