Relocated And Lonely

My husband passed away in July of 2010 from a massive heart attack. He layed i the hospital for 2 days until his family could get to where he was in the hospital. Then we decided that since there was little hope for a life of the kind he would have wanted we unhooked him. He never regained consciousness following the attack.

I was devastated of course, and spent the next few months deciding what to do. I eventually retired early and sold my house in Indiana. I moved down to Mississippi to be with my daughter and her family.

Some parts of my life are good here. But I miss my sister in Indiana so much. She is not well, and I don't know how I ever got the guts to go off and leave her. She is a widow too. She has to start kidney dialysis soon.

Today I got so bored and lonely that I could not stop thinking of how lonely I am. My kids I live near here are so busy themselves that they don't have much time for me. I am just feeling sorry for myself and I know it is wrong.

I feel like I want a room mate or someone to just be here. But that is way too risky since I know so few people down here. Who could I trust? Tonight I had dinner with my best friend I have made since I came down here. She is so nice. I did not think I could make friends here because I am shy. But she is a widow too. So we both get to talking about our husbands dying, and I got more depressed. Now I don't think I can sleep at all tonight.

I don't know what to do. I feel like I am a baby that got left at an orphange. Isn't that dumb?
Shylee1412 Shylee1412
61-65, F
1 Response Jan 12, 2013

The man I loved dearly died of a heart attack last year, so I know how you feel. I have a 12 y.o. daughter, so it helps me by not being alone. I also left the place we lived, and moved to Colorado where my older daughter and grand-kids live. I get very lonely and have horrible back problems. I take it one day at a time. I try to remember my beloved didn't suffer and that we will be reunited, when it's time. I treasure the time we had together, but realize I have to continue without him. Yes it's hard, and I have many sleepless nights too, but I am doing what I have to to carry on. I feel for you.

Thank you for your response. I know I have to carry on. I have vision problems but nothing like your back problems. I am so sorry for your pain, physical and emotional. I just found this site and I think it may help me. Thanks again and hope to be able to keep in touch.