Sick To My Stomach...

My husband was murdered opening up one of his stores at 8:30 am in south fl.3 thugs shot and killed him.my daughter 5 yrs old and myself were in Mich waiting for him to catch a flight that afternoon,but instead I got a phone call from my best friend at the time.was horrible and surreal.like it was all a bad flipping dream.we flew back home the next day.Its been crazy since then with funeral arrangements and trials that I didn't get a chance to feel anything till after all the smoke.Our life's have changed so much and the TEAM that my husband and I shared was gone all of a sudden it was a huge emptiness that I feel.There is not a day or evening I don't cry or want to get out of bed.i have pushed everyone away that was a friend. I miss him soooo much and I would almost do anything to be with him.It's been 2 yrs and I hate being alone.... But not sure how ready I am to start dating ...being married 25 yrs since I was 20.I still half of my life to live.scared as hell....
Widowjuly2010 Widowjuly2010
41-45, F
1 Response Jan 15, 2013

Sorry to hear about your loss.......I know how difficult it is to live without a person who was pillar of your life. But no matter how hard it is, we have to accept the fact and live with it. You need to be strong not just for yourself but also for the sake of your daughter. If there is some life after death and if he is watching you...he would never want you to be sad......Just be strong and make best of the life you have...God Bless You!!!