Dec 29,2012 I lost my love . We were married for 25 years. He was only 49 and his passing was very sudden. One minute we were laughing and making plans for my homecoming the next day and the next I was recieving that horrible phone call. I am lost, lonely, and in tremendous pain. In a short space of time I lost him, my job, and am losing our home and car. Bill collecters keep calling and I don't know what to do. It is hard to find a job when you can't get thru an interview without breaking down. People keep telling me to give myself time, it will get better. I wonder if they will still say that when I am living under a bridge. There is no hope when your world crashes into pain and confusion.