My husband and I had been married for 41 years and he truly was the love of my life. He was diagnosed with lung cancer in January 2008 and and passed away November 26. I feel like am not complete anymore. I have a constant ache in my heart and in my stomach that will not go away. I feel like all I want to do is crawl in bed and cover my head and simply die. But I know I can't do that. We have two beautiful grown children and I wouldn't do anything to hurt them. But this aching and missing him will not go away. I do try to get out of the house some but I'm not happy doing that either. I just want to stay home and cry.