Lonely

Mu husband died 2 months ago after 27 yrs together (18 of marriage) i was 16 when me met. We have 2 wonderful children which scares me that i will not be enough of a parent by myself. The worst is the lonliness, even in a room full of people i am overwhelming lonely. I know that this will eventually pass but at the moment it is almost unbearable. All my friends are currently at a social function which i know they wanted me to go to but I just can't. It doesn't seem right to me to be so happy. I have such a public face of being ok that everyone assumes i am but i know that i am sinking further into the darkness of sadness. it is so tiring being sad all the time but somehow it feels right not to be happy at the moment. i know bad things happen everyday all over the world, tragic evil things but i was so happy in my own life, perhaps too happy. I have many friends and family but there is no one who misses him like i do and they are all slowly moving on and i feel like i am just treading water. i know i will never marry again because i can not go through this pain ever again. i am not saying i will not move on but will make peace and be by myself with friends and family but will never commit to a man again.

Erinlee Erinlee
41-45
7 Responses Feb 20, 2009

hi lonely my name is jackie you are at the worst time its ok to feel what you are feeling it is inportant you let it out if you need to talk ,im hear 4 you i had my gielys to talk to it helps becouse my children have there own gref.<br />
big hug it ok to smile,yoyr new friend jackie

You are so right <br />
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god bless<br />
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hugs

I was widowed in November and people may think I am nuts but at times I talk to him in the house and in my car. I truly feel his spirit is with me sometimes and it helps my loneliness. Perhaps you can try the same. And think about what he would want you to do to make him happy. Because he is with you and watching and taking care of you, he would want you to live and live for him too. He may be gone physically but he is in your soul, mind and heart and he will live forever.

sunflower I am sorry you miss him so <br />
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there are no words to ease the pain<br />
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all i can say is I have a shoulder for you and an ear<br />
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god bless you

hi i was widowed in september and i can relate to what you are saying i am blest to have good friends but i only want to talk to my husand i feel empty o so empty. sunnflower

I know I lost my husband in 1994<br />
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he must have been a great man<br />
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but think about this if you had passed on<br />
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would you want him to feel sad and never be happy <br />
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again.<br />
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the sadness is so normal and when the time is right<br />
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you will be happy again<br />
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my heart goes out to you.<br />
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I will talk to you or just listen <br />
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Hugs

that is sad. i'm sorry for you that you lost your husband. i hope you find a way to move on, at a time and pace that is good for you to heal.<br />
Cm