The Lost of My Best Friend

I meet this sweet handsome guy 14 yrs ago,and feel in love with him right away.The thing is we chatted over the phone for one month before we started to go out.This beutiful man was blind,had diebeties,and then later became rental failure and a bad heart.My husbaand had a heart of gold.He was the one that showed me what love and life was about.On Sept 6 of 1997 we got Married and on Oct 10 of 2008 The good lord took him home.After his death I really didnt know what to do and still dont.I am afaird to go out and have fun or be around others.His and mine bithday are around the same day and month and i was so out of controll I had a nevus brake down and want to end my life as wellWhat can i do to releave the pain..

lumoby lumoby
36-40, F
2 Responses Mar 5, 2009

Time will be your pain reliever. Trust in God to get you through this heart ache. You have to remember that if you end your life....you will never see him again. I look forward to the day that I am reunited with my husband...but I know that it cannot be my choice to leave or I will not be reunited with him. Turn to the church for help....<br />
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I am truly sorry for your loss and pain...

get help soon