Im a Widow
i became a widow 5/25/07 the day before my son became 18 and 1 week before he graduated high school. how was that for timing. i was married for 27 years and we had 4 children. sons, 23,18,13, dtr 9. almost 2 years and i cant stop crying. its hard to be the single parent. always the bad guy no matter what. its lonely not to have someone put their arm around you and feel human touch. i knew it was going to happen. my frank had prostate cancer that metastasized to his bones. thought that his surgery, hormones and radiation helped but guess not. i know he suffered and im sorry about it but so mad that im left here alone. we had more than our shoare of fights together but we stood together and both always said we would not leave our kids because we both lost our fathers-him thru abandonment and my dad thru death when i was 16. people dont get it. divorced single moms dont get it its not the same. went to a support group for a while but 2 many were grieving lost children so tht made it so much harder. wish i could find a group in queens or long island to talk in do you kknow of any. i said a lot for the first time but needed to thanks for reading this whoever you are.