Recently Became A Widow After Ft.hood Incident
My husband and I got married August 22, 2009. We were only married for 2 months when he was murdered at Ft.Hood on November 5, 2009. I miss him so much, I keep questioning my faith, but I just have to hope that he remembers us and is watching over me and the kids. It still feels like a dream, sometimes I even think maybe I died and went to hell, because life without him is hell for me. I have no one to talk to that knows what I'm going through. I need someone to hang out with that is or has gone through it before. I miss him so much it makes me sick.
His family, except for his dad, hates me. They threw a fit about how I planned the funeral and haven't talked to me since. It saddens me that they are being like that, but it also makes me mad that they would dismiss Jason and I's marriage so easily. They want to be in the spotlight and it kills them to think that I am insteaf of them. But, I am not the one taking every single interview I can! It makes me sick!