I Been A Widow 3 Years, But I Need Help To Unerstand Why Please Help Me With Advice

MY STORY IS SAD , AND I AM TELLING BECAUSE I DONT WANT OTHER WOMANS TO SUFFER WHAT I HADD SUFFER, I WAS TRING TO HARD TO PLEASE MY LATE HOUSBAND, AND HIS FAMILY, BEEN RAISED IN NEW YORK CITY, AND BEEN A SPANISH, AMERICAN, AND ARABIC WOMAN FOR 20 YEARS, WELL, MY GREAT GRANDPARENTS WHERE FROM THE MIDLE EAST, SYRIA, MY HOUSBAND WAS FROM AMMAN JORDAN HE WAS A VERY GOOD MEN UNTIL GOD TOOK HIM, BUT MY TRAGIC STORY IS THAT, I TREATED MY HOUSBANDS FAMILY BETTER THAN MY OWN, AND FOR 20 YEARS, THEY LIE TO ME , MAKING ME THINK THAT I WAS ACCEPTED LIKE ONE OF THEM, I LEARN, THERE FOOD, THEY LANGUAGE, THE WAY OF SERVED THEM, HIS NEPHEW, CAME TO THIS COUNTRY SINCE 1990, AND I THOUGHT, HE WAS GOING TO BE A HUMAN AN AT LEAST CALL MY KIDS, KNOW MY KIDS ARE SUFFERING, MONEY WISE, BECAUSE , HE NEVER PAY TAXES, SO MY POOR KIDS, THEY DID NOT GOT NO BENEFITS, SSO CK FROM THE SOCIAL SECURITY, NO BECAUSE HE ALWAYS STAYED WITH HIS OWN KIND, I NEVER UNDERSTOD, THAT, AND THE SISTER HE HAVE IN LOS ANGELES, FOUR YEARS AGO, I ASK FOR HER HELP , I HUMILATE MY SELF ASKING HER FOR HELP FOR HER OWN BROTHER,AND WHAT SHE TOLD ME , JUST LEAVE HIM, I TOLD HER HOW I HAVE TWO KIDS FROM YOUR BROTHER, AND HE NEDED MEDICINES, BUT NO SHE DID NOT CARE, SHE ONLY CARES HER SELF HER YEWLERY, WHY THEY TREAT ME FOR 20 YEARS LIKE I WAS PART OF THE FAMILY, AND AS SOON AS ,MY  HOUSBAND DIE, THEY NEVER CALL MY KIDS, OR SEND AT LEAST 10 DOLLARS OR LETS NOT GO FAR TO CALL THEN, I BEG OF THEM TO PLEASE KEEP IN TOUCH WITH THEM , ONE IS 16 AND 7 , MY 16 YEAR OLD IS ANGRY, AND DONT UNDERSTAND WHY, AND  THE SMALL ONE IS WHY MAMI , WHY THEY DONT CALL OR CARES ABOUT US, WORST , MY HOUSE IS NOT PAID FOR, I HAVE BILLS AND IN TOP OF MY MISSERIES, MY HELTH IS BAD, , MY ROOF IS COLLAPSIN, PLEASE IF YOU THINKING TO MARRY ANY BODY OUT SIDE YOUR RACE, THINK IN THE FUTURE, AND TAKE MY EXAMPLE , ME I CHANGE MY WHOLE AMERICAN, SPANISH, AND KNOW AFTER 20 YEARS, I AM LOST, I FEEL SO HURT, NOT FOR ME FOR MY KIDS, THEY SUFFER, NO TO HAVE WHAT OTHER KIDS HAVE, TO ME IS DEVASTATING, BUTT, I KNOW THAT ONE AY WHE ARE UP , AND THEN DOW, AND THE WORSE, THAT SINCE HE DIE, I DONT HAVE ANY DESIRE TO CONTINUE ,WITH LIFE, I AM SO DESAPOITED, HOW CAN A GET HELP .UPHUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

SESI SESI
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1 Response Mar 11, 2010

HY How are you, Thank you so much, for your comment and I apreciate it so much, and thanks for offering me your help, This days is very rear, that someone will offer help, and I ask God to bless you, I will send you and e mail, I will really love to get to know you and be friens, Thank you.