Devastation

After 20 years of absolute bliss...no, we did not fight..maybe twice in all that time, a blood clot took the love of my life.  He was my soul mate and my absolute joy.  It has been six years and today my heart is bleeding again.  I raised his children and we did not have any together.  After losing him, the kids all turned their backs on me and most of the time I can cope.  Today isnot a good day.  When does this gaping wound ever close????

MrsLou MrsLou
46-50
6 Responses Mar 13, 2010

hi to marylou, and to all that have responded to her, to the last response, lkrk, i so agree with you<br />
my husband was my life, i also feel lifeless ,our 17 yr old daughter, and 13 yr old son, <br />
definetly keep me going, ive got my hands full with two teens, but its such an empty feeling, a <br />
missing link. its 1.5 yrs for me, ive lost my husband, as the new year came in, i said i want to work on me, im trying <br />
believe me i am, but im battling depression, i sleep so much, im trying so hard to fight it. or either <br />
that i have bouts of depression., highs and lows. grief is so many things, many emotions, feelings<br />
run thru me everyday. to anyone who wants to write to me, please do so. it is so helpful to all of us

Hi Marylou,<br />
<br />
I have no idea how anyone makes it for 6 years. All I know is time flies, everyone else gets on with their life and we have none. I feel like 99.999999% of me left with my husband and there's just this little part of me that's left here, trying to function and not succeed ing very well.<br />
<br />
God Bless All Of You.<br />
<br />
If you would like to write me, feel free to do so.

marylou, i understand you, i lost my husband of 18.5 yrs from a blood clot he was 45 i was 43,we<br />
have two children together, daughter and son. i had two stepdaughters, his two older daughters<br />
it has been 1.5 yrs on march 8th., how does one survive 6 yrs of this, like you have. god bless you and<br />
grant you peace, as we all travel together on this incredibly painful grieving journey. i dont know<br />
you, but i sure do understand and relate. stay strong connie and teens

My heart goes out to all of you.<br />
<br />
MrsLou,<br />
<br />
I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling. I've been a Widow for 5 years, 4 months and 14 days and it still seems like yesterday to me and the pain is even stronger for me. I'm so sorry that your Husband's children tuned against you. That's one blessing I still have. My Husbands Son, from a previous marriage still keeps in touch and he has our first Grandson, so I'm so thankful.<br />
<br />
Unfortunately, I've seen your situation many times in the past. It just seems like kids usually turn against the man or woman they believe is trying to destroy their parents lives. They simply do not understand. Maybe you should try sending them a card or calling them, to let them know that you still care about them. I've seen this change a lot of hearts. Just a thought.<br />
<br />
Reading your beautiful discription of your Husband, was like reading my heart about mine. If there is anything you would like to talk about, anytime, please just write to me, okay? I do sincerely care.<br />
<br />
Angel Blessings

My heart goes out to all of you.<br />
<br />
MrsLou,<br />
<br />
I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeling. I've been a Widow for 5 years, 4 months and 14 days and it still seems like yesterday to me and the pain is even stronger for me. I'm so sorry that your Husband's children tuned against you. That's one blessing I still have. My Husbands Son, from a previous marriage still keeps in touch and he has our first Grandson, so I'm so thankful.<br />
<br />
Unfortunately, I've seen your situation many times in the past. It just seems like kids usually turn against the man or woman they believe is trying to destroy their parents lives. They simply do not understand. Maybe you should try sending them a card or calling them, to let them know that you still care about them. I've seen this change a lot of hearts. Just a thought.<br />
<br />
Reading your beautiful discription of your Husband, was like reading my heart about mine. If there is anything you would like to talk about, anytime, please just write to me, okay? I do sincerely care.<br />
<br />
Angel Blessings

Never, the wound is always. I was 24 yrs old when I became a widow, never remarried, I had the best he was irreplaceable. I totally understand when you say he was your soul mate. Children are so different and peculiar. I raised my sisters children, she didn't see them for 15 yrs., now my sister has come back into their lives, it is almost like they have to be rude to me so their mom will be proud. There is nothing to help with your broken heart, when the kids need something from you they will be around, they don't have to be polite as their dad is not there to notice their behavior. I am sorry for your loss.