Scarey

I woke up early this morning and it suddenly dawned on me just how alone I really am!  Of couse I have work colleagues/friends (most of whom are married and have their own families) who I sometimes go out with on occasions, but not what I would call 'close' friends, friends that I could ring up out of the blue and perhaps ask them to accompany me to the hospital (nothing serious, but one of those occasions where they just advise you should have someone to accompany you), etc.  I am detached from my brothers/sisters - never was really ever close.  I do have a son who I know would attend with me if need be BUT he works hard and he does have his own family and I simply could not bear it if I became a burden on him - I love him too much for that, and I know he would not hesitate in helping me out - no question about that -  but what has frightened me here is that there is no one else I can ask!  Its an awful feeling, scarey. 

I did have my husband up to two years ago but sadly he passed away 2008.  We were married for 36yrs and I took for granted that somehow he would always be there for me! 

shadow111 shadow111
51-55, F
Aug 8, 2010