Where Did My Spirit Go?

I find myself searching for me. With everything that's happened and all that's going on, I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I haven't been in the woods for more than a year, I can't hear my gods anymore, and I have been so stressed out with other things that I don't have time to do anything about it. I can't meditate. Even when I do get 5 minutes of silence alone, my mind won't shut up. I mean really stupid **** like a phrase from a song that makes no sense and keeps repeating over and over and I can never shut it out. Random crap for no reason!

It's turning into a spiritual crisis, and I almost started throwing things away from my element altars. Instead I knew I would regret it so I packed it all in boxes. I am lost from my path. I feel like it might be the gods' way of telling me to concentrate on my son and our situation, but I can't say for sure because they usually speak to me and they aren't. I've been through "Dark Nights" before, but not like this. I feel like I should just put it all down and walk away, but another part of me feels like I should try and get myself back. Who am I? I can't remember!
FellidayaFiresong FellidayaFiresong
31-35, F
1 Response Jan 6, 2013

(((HUGS)))Anxiety sucks. Working out, if you can find time, might help.<br />
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I get that whole "brain-noise" thing at times...it's very annoying.