I Feel So Alone

my bf and i just got engaged i reluctantly said yes. Our sex life is less than once a month. I only get laid if he is drunk basically. It makes me think all the time I'm some sort of obese whale or something that I'm so unattractive he has to get drunk to want me. Even then he can't finish.

I feel like some sort of nympho because I want sex and he doesn't want to. I feel like there is something wrong with me. I don't know what to do. He says he's attracted to me and he doesn't watch **** or anything (not to my knowledge anyway). Im constantly feeling rejected unloved and unattractive and am constantly going to bed in tears because I'm so frustrated because he won't talk about it. I've done everything I'm supposed to romantic dinners fantasies watch **** together.

I don't know what to do anymore I feel terrible for even writing this. There has to be something seriously wrong with me for him not to want me.
missblackheart missblackheart
18-21, F
3 Responses May 25, 2012

Miss this is the first sign that you are headed for a sucky marriage. A happy loving person wants to have sex with his/her spouse. If not, well something just isnt right.

You have my sympathy, you really do, but whatever you do, do not get pregnant and do not get married. I know that sounds harsh, I don't know him, maybe he has some redeeming qualities, but believe me if you are this unhappy now, it will only get worse.You COULD try counselling- and if that works thats great, but trust me, if you marry and have kids and then decide you want out it is SO much more complicated. You are young, you deserve to be with someone that makes you happy. Going to bed crying is NOT a good sign. Good luck.

i can understand your feelings but do not think there is anything wrong with you I think he is the one with prob, you should rethink how you feel and let him know he needs to pick up his game or he might loose you, good luck