I Am A Woman In A Sexless Marriage To A Man I Still Love

I located this web site tonight and reading through a lot of the stories on here, I am surprised to learn that I am not the only woman with this problem. However, I think my story differs from the rest because I have an addiction as well.

My husband and I have been together for over 22 years. Which of those we have been married for almost 18 years. I had three children before we were married and no kids were born in our marriage - I had my tubes tied before we got together.

The first 10 years were good, but I started gambling. Not much at first, but then it grew. The last 8 years have been like a whirl wind mind playing game is what I call it. At first he would say he was tired and we only had sex 5 to 8 times a year. The last 5 years we have only had sex 4 times. He states it is my gambling habit that causes him to have no sex drive. I have tried to stay away from the gambling establishments, but after staying away for 6 to 8 weeks at a time, our sex life never changed. So I resumed my play.

I hear from him all the time about the time and money I spend at the casinos, but I have a full time job that pays pretty well and it is my money I am spending. I pay the bills and this is what I have left. Yes sometimes I over spend and I have to catch the bills up, but it isn't like he takes over the bills and pays them when I have done this.

I love my husband and I miss his touches and his kisses, and as of today, January 20, 2013 I have yet to even have a kiss from him. I don't want to leave him, I want a way to fix this, if there is a way to fix this.

Is divorce the only answer, cause to tell you the truth, I can't see myself with anyone else. As the song goes, "Is there life out there??"
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Jan 20, 2013