Me.....

I am the only grandchild of an only child, who's grandparent preferred showering affection and treats on her friends, and still does.....

I am the shy child who longed to be asked to the party, the dance, the group - to belong

I am the soulful child who kept quiet under an atmosphere of tension so thick it was palpable, yet never sunk beneath its crushing weight

I am the bullied teenager, who once believing she belonged and was accepted was betrayed by those she called friends, but NEVER EVER gave up or gave in

I am the cuckold fiance you said you loved and believed in a future of happy ever after; who was there for you when you were lost and frightened and didn't' know what to do when you got someone else pregnant - I helped you, we got you sorted, and I walked away with my head held high.....

I am the work colleague and friend who's kindness you mistook for more and wouldn't take no for an answer; who, as young as i was, naive as i was, had the strenght of my own self worth NOT to give in and become your mistress because I am better than that - worth more than that....

I am the only child, who at 23, become a little sister to a half-brother i didn't know about, welcoming you with open arms;  an auntie when i never thought i'd be, and a daughter grieving her father with still soooo many unanswered questions in her mind, her heart and her soul.......

I am the woman with a Masters degree who the teachers at school advised not to bother turning up for the exams because it wouldn't be worth it.....

I am a daughter, best friend, auntie and confidant, and i know that i am loved....

I am the person who others have mistaken kindness and caring for weakness - they have learned

I am strong, resilient, brave, open and caring (i hope), who can see how far she has come, and how much more of the journey still remains....

I am the women who longs for a family of her own, but accepts this may never be and if that is true, i am happy with what i have, because i recognise i have a full life, that is still unraveling its wonders to me.....

I am my own work in progress......

I am simply ME

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