Loneliness Lingering Over Me Again
Today is an extremely hard day for me...i dont think i have felt so lonely ever before in my life. i so desperatly want to be in my sailors arms today more than ever and i dont know why today makes it any different from any other. I feel like time is creeping by and nothing i do can make it go any faster...my heart longs for matthew and i cant wait till the end of may to get here. My baby doesnt even know how much i need him in my life, he means so much to me and he is always on my mind, constantly thinking what hes doing or if im on his. Everytime i talk to him i long for more time, just one more minute just one slight hint that hes missing me the way im missing him. I miss his comforting touch, rolling over and feeling him beside me, hearing him shuffling around, hearing his voice call for me...:( I feel like im in a nightmare and not able to wake up. Hanging on to every word he says as if it is the most intense story i have ever heard. I want to wake up in his arms, come home from work and feel him wrap his arms around me, feel his kiss and hear him tell me hes here. My life feels so empty without him here i cant explain the love i have for him and may never be able to. Hes an amazing man and i cant wait to be with him again.