Just Need Some Support

My marine recruit just left for basic on Sunday and arrived Monday night. Our two year anniversary was that Tuesday. I'm having a really hard time coping with him being gone. I'm mostly struggling with getting lost in my own head space. He told me 100000 times the last time we talked how much he loves me. But without him here to confirm it I keep having these irrational fears that in the two weeks before we can talk via letter he's going to decide that he's better off without me. I know it isn't true but I can't help but think it sometimes. I reread his notes and messages as much as I can to remind myself how many times he's told me how much he loves me and that he can't see his future without me in it. I know I'm being irrational and over reacting. I would just really like some advice on how to cope with him gone for these few months. More specifically how to cope these first few weeks when there's absolutely zero contact. Any advice would be great. Thank you so much!
Almostalyssaaa Almostalyssaaa
18-21, F
3 Responses May 24, 2012

i do the exact same thing! i text him all the time just simple "i miss you so much." or "i love youu!!" or if idont have my notebook with me ill just send him my thoughts in a text. when i get reall upset or something and i need to vent out to him but i cant do it in a letter to him while hes gone, so ill message him on facebook because i know he wont get that until hes home. we're all heere for each other:)

Oh, and I write in a journal everyday. It makes you feel like your kind of talking to him. And that way if you have a thought you won't forget to put it in the letter you send him:)

I usually either text him if I have random thoughts or facebook message him. I mean I know it'll be a while till he can read them but it's just more things for him to loo forward to for when he graduates. I know that I'm being pretty irrational, but thank you so much for the reassurance. I told one of my best friends about what I was thinking and I was told "well then you'll just have to move on". Not an answer you wanna hear. Lol. But thank you so much. If you ever want to talk feel free to message me or email me almostalyssaaa@aim.com :)

Hi:) my boyfriend left for boot camp a week ago, it's been so hard for me to adjust. But I do know that he is feeling exactly how you are. I'm sure he misses you so much and can't to see you. We need to stay strong together:)