I Hope We Last When He Leaves
My boyfriend is 19 and signed up for the Marines. He made the decision before we even met but I support it 100%. We talked about it before we started dating, so I knew what I was getting myself into. At first the plan was he wasn't going active so he was going to go to basics then come and stay home with me for two years, which I loved because he would definitely be here to see me graduate and I love having him around. Then change of plans, he would go to basics then stay here for four years, which I loved even more! I was happy with his decision and he told me he was too, then one day his friend went to see his recruiter with us and he convinced him to go active and my boyfriend said he would sleep on it but that happened to be the final decision day. I was sitting there hoping he wouldn't agree to this, but he did. Right when I heard him say "Okay, I'll do it." my heart dropped! I couldn't believe it. He chose it because of the better benefits which is completely understandable, but it still hurt knowing that he's going to be gone right away instead of staying here with me for four years. I'm worried while he's gone he'll meet someone new or stop missing me or something. What makes it worse is I can't go live with him until I finish up high school. When we talk about it he always reassures me that it'll all work out but obviously I still worry. I know I'll stay faithful and everything and I really hope he does too. I really love this guy and I don't know how to deal with this. He's leaving to go to meps in a couple hours and he'll only be gone 3 days - a week and I already miss him. That makes me wonder how much it's going to suck when he actually goes away. Being young makes this whole thing suck even more! I would love if there were people I could connect with and talk to. Like young women who are going through the same thing.