Things Are Looking Up

3 Months ago I moved in with my boyfriend. As of right now, things are better between us. However, a while ago, that wasn't the case. He suffers from PTSD. He still won't tell me what happened while he was overseas but i'm learning to not ask. It used to be really bad. I used to always feel safe around him, but when he came back, I feared for my well-being. He of course, doesn't know any of this. One day he saw me cowering from his as he lifted a chair. When he saw that I actually thought he was going to hit me, he broke down crying. Things have been better since. It's not perfect. He still gets angry sometimes, he refuses to let me drive (that could be because I'm a terrible driver) I see him crying in the middle of the night. Night terrors have become a constant in our lives. But he smiles now. He laughs and we joke around. A lot of it was my insensitivity though. I'm realizing that now. Since I've never been to war. My only experience of it is through The Things They Carried, by Tim O'brien. (Thanks to the EP member who recommended that to me!!) However, even reading that helped me understand some of the traumatizing affects war can have. I still hope that he gets counseling. But he has too much pride to see a shrink.
breannajust breannajust
18-21, F
Dec 13, 2012