It All Happened So FastOn August 4th my husband, lover, soul mate, twin flame, my world , died, he was 39, we had gone to bed, had sex and came downstairs to raid the fridge, I had got a glass of water to take back up with me, I walked from kitchen to the lounge as I entered the lounge he grabbed his chest and fell to the floor I rang an ambulance, they arrived and worked on my husband, eventually they stabilized him, and he was put into the ambulance, we then headed for the hospital, when we arrived the doors flew open and the paramedics ran through to a room, I was allowed in the room, and stood away slightly, then at just gone 3:30am they pronounced him dead, this all happened so fast.
I learned he died from myocardial infarction.
He was fit healthy ran daily, didn't smoke drank only on occasion, was alive and vibrant one minute dead the next, I just cant get used to it, it all happened so fast, I cant believe Ill never see him hug him love him touch him kiss him again, it seems so unfair, and was just so fast. I loved him so deeply so intensely, we had loved one another since day one,we married within 6 weeks of meeting, and had a great marriage and very rarely argued, we talked, and shared all major decisions, I feel so lost so alone, I look for him, I cant sleep eat, or be bothered to do much. I want to be where he is.
I just don't understand why.